On May 30th, 2012 I began my last diet. I weighed 304.9 pounds. I was on 2 medicines for high triglycerides and 1 for high blood pressure. I used a CPAP machine at night for sleep apnea. I was personally miserable. Subjected to discrimination, I was the 300 pound invisible woman. I was wearing plus sized/women’s size 3x clothes and a size 28W jeans. I sweat like a fountain. I took over-the-counter meds daily for acid reflux. My knees were tender going down stairs, so I avoided using stairs whenever possible. I did not wear heels, or skirts/dresses. I was a ticking time-bomb of severe, debilitating health issues.
On May 30th, 2013 I’m still on the diet. I weighed in this morning at 188.4 pounds. I’m on no meds for high triglycerides or blood pressure. I no longer need the CPAP machine. I’m personally quite happy. I get better treatment in public, and men make eye contact with me now. I wear ladies size L/XL, and a size 12/14 pants. I only sweat now when it’s a high dew point and I’m active. I only have to take an over-the-counter acid reflux medicine when I’ve had too much indulgence (rarely). My knees are no longer tender, and I participated in the Fight for Air Stair Climb in March. Today I’m wearing heels and a skirt.
I’m no longer a ticking time-bomb of severe, debilitating health issues.
Best of all, I’ve proven to myself that I can do anything. I’m no longer a worry to myself, my family, or my friends.
So today, at 116.5 pounds lighter than one year ago, I celebrate. I’m celebrating by going to work and wearing fun, girly clothing, with good hair and makeup. I’m celebrating by going to my weekly weigh-in. I’m celebrating by eating completely on my plan (because I still have a bit more weight I want to lose), and I’m celebrating by continuing to share my journey with you.
Many times I’ve mentioned thanks in my blog, and today will be no different. I’m eternally grateful to the following people (in no particular order):
- my mom and dad
- my extended family
- my friends (especially Kyle, Sandhya, David, Katie, Jenn, Jenn, Jenn, Mike, Kim, Sharon, Gus, Brian, Kevin, Sade, Lynda, Sarah & family, Euretha, Sue, the Call Someone Who Cares Singers, Megan, and Terri)
- Suzanne with Ideal Protein
- my boyfriend, Steve, who thinks I’m beautiful inside and out and tells me all the time
- the Sparkpeople Ideal Protein community
- you (my stalkers)
I don’t know what the future holds, as I know the next year I will begin maintenance and that new phase of my life. But I do know one thing for certain….I will never, hear me now, NEVER weigh over 200 pounds again. And I put this in writing because I feel 100% about my ability to never get to such a dark place that I will let myself. I will have slips. I will have down times. I will have times I eat for comfort. I will have times I have to slay the dragon. But I know for sure that I will always reign it in within 10 pounds. I have a great support network that will help keep me accountable, and I will continue to rely on them, as well as rely on myself.
Because after all, I’ve lost 116.5 pounds. I can do anything.
And so can you.