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Time to celebrate


On May 30th, 2012 I began my last diet.  I weighed 304.9 pounds.  I was on 2 medicines for high triglycerides and 1 for high blood pressure.  I used a CPAP machine at night for sleep apnea.  I was personally miserable.  Subjected to discrimination,  I was the 300 pound invisible woman.  I was wearing plus sized/women’s size 3x clothes and a size 28W jeans.  I sweat like a fountain.  I took over-the-counter meds daily for acid reflux.  My knees were tender going down stairs, so I avoided using stairs whenever possible.  I did not wear heels, or skirts/dresses.  I was a ticking time-bomb of severe, debilitating health issues.

On May 30th, 2013 I’m still on the diet.  I weighed in this morning at 188.4 pounds.  I’m on no meds for high triglycerides or blood pressure.  I no longer need the CPAP machine.  I’m personally quite happy.  I get better treatment in public, and men make eye contact with me now.  I wear ladies size L/XL, and a size 12/14 pants.  I only sweat now when it’s a high dew point and I’m active.  I only have to take an over-the-counter acid reflux medicine when I’ve had too much indulgence (rarely).  My knees are no longer tender, and I participated in the Fight for Air Stair Climb in March.  Today I’m wearing heels and a skirt.

I’m no longer a ticking time-bomb of severe, debilitating health issues.

Best of all, I’ve proven to myself that I can do anything.  I’m no longer a worry to myself, my family, or my friends.

So today, at 116.5 pounds lighter than one year ago, I celebrate.  I’m celebrating by going to work and wearing fun, girly clothing, with good hair and makeup.  I’m celebrating by going to my weekly weigh-in.  I’m celebrating by eating completely on my plan (because I still have a bit more weight I want to lose), and I’m celebrating by continuing to share my journey with you.

Many times I’ve mentioned thanks in my blog, and today will be no different.  I’m eternally grateful to the following people (in no particular order):

  • my mom and dad
  • my extended family
  • my friends (especially Kyle, Sandhya, David, Katie, Jenn, Jenn, Jenn, Mike, Kim, Sharon, Gus, Brian, Kevin, Sade, Lynda, Sarah & family, Euretha, Sue, the Call Someone Who Cares Singers, Megan, and Terri)
  • Suzanne with Ideal Protein
  • my boyfriend, Steve, who thinks I’m beautiful inside and out and tells me all the time
  • the Sparkpeople Ideal Protein community
  • you (my stalkers)

I don’t know what the future holds, as I know the next year I will begin maintenance and that new phase of my life.  But I do know one thing for certain….I will never, hear me now, NEVER weigh over 200 pounds again.  And I put this in writing because I feel 100% about my ability to never get to such a dark place that I will let myself.  I will have slips.  I will have down times.  I will have times I eat for comfort.  I will have times I have to slay the dragon.  But I know for sure that I will always reign it in within 10 pounds.  I have a great support network that will help keep me accountable, and I will continue to rely on them, as well as rely on myself.

Because after all, I’ve lost 116.5 pounds.  I can do anything.

And so can you.



This morning I weighed in at 188.7, down from 189.0 the other day.  On Thursday, 4/11, I weighed 205.3.  So I will take the 16.6 weight loss for 2 weeks.  Yes, it was mostly water & glycogen, but some of it’s “real”.  From this point until my goal it will be probably 1-2 pounds per week, which is A-OK with me.

A few weeks ago my doctor thought 170 would be a great goal.  As I get closer to that number, I just don’t know.  Perhaps I’ll go to 160 and play in the 160’s with normal fluctuations.

I know 2 things for sure:

  1. My face has never looked thinner.  I shocked myself in the work restroom today my face looks so good.
  2. My blood pressure was 100/66 this morning at the doctor’s office (yearly checkup).  She joked they would have to revive me.  Public service announcement….ideal blood pressure is 120/80.  Until the end of July 2012 when I went off of BP meds, I had been on blood pressure meds since my early 20’s.
  3. I’m leaving for vacation in less than 48 hours!!!!!!!!!!!!

Could life get any better?  SURE!!!!  Why not?  I deserve it!

Have a great day everybody!

Oh yeah……


189.5 this morning.

I have not seen that number since high school.  Holy cow……

This means I’ve lost 115.4 pounds since May 30th, 2012.

I’m finding the right combo of exercise and food (when and where).  For example, last week my IP coach recommended I drink the mango & peach IP drink right after exercise as it has electrolytes in it.  I’ve been doing that, and it’s great!  Last night I even took it out on the floor with me instead of my water bottle, and I felt great while doing the machines after my run.

I am finding that I have to play a bit with the calories on the days I run (and the day after I run) due to needing more energy and sheer hunger of revving up my engine so high.  IP purists, I’m not recommending this until you become an IP “oldie but goodie” (meaning, I did 8 months of traditional IP, following the rules strictly, including only low to moderate exercise).  On days I exercise, and sometimes the day after, I’m having 4 to 5 IP products.  I stay below 55 carbs (not net carbs), and sometimes have to sacrifice veggies (maybe 2-3 cups instead of 4….just to keep the carbs down).  I know this is “off plan”, and I know long-term the more veggies the better….but I’m trying to find the right balance of staying in ketosis while exercising like a fiend.  It won’t be for forever….only until my one year anniversary on May 30th, 2013 (my end point until I reach 160 before then….not likely).

Yesterday –  I ran 2 miles in the early evening

Breakfast – 145 calories, 7 carbs, 0 fat, 28 protein

  • Ideal Protein Cappuccino Drink, 1 serving
  • Ideal Protein Vanilla Drink Packet, 0.5 serving
  • Non-fat Milk in ounces, 1 oz in coffee

Lunch – 233 calories, 9 carbs, 10 fat, 25 protein

  • Ideal Protein Crispy Cereal, 1 serving
  • Egg – Large, 1 serving
  • Coconut Oil – Nutiva Organic Extra-Virgin Coconut Oil, 0.33 tbsp
  • Non-fat Milk in ounces, 1 oz in coffee

Dinner – 514 calories, 12 carbs, 19 fat, 71 protein

  • Pork Tenderloin, 8 oz
  • Cauliflower, cooked, 150 grams
  • Green Beans (snap), 75 grams

Snack – 365 calories, 23 carbs, 4 fat, 63 protein

  • mid-afternoon Non-fat Milk in ounces, 1 oz in coffee
  • 90 minutes before run – Ideal Protein Vanilla Drink Packet, 0.5 serving
  • 30 minutes before run – Ideal Protein Choco Raspberry, 1 serving
  • immediately after run/before machines – Ideal Protein Peach and Mango Drink Mix, 1 serving
  • after dinner snack – Ideal Protein Cappuccino Drink, 1 serving

Grand Total for the day: 1,257 calories, 52 carbs (4o net carbs), 34 fat,  187 protein 

Today (day after a run), I’m having:

Breakfast – 145 calories, 7 carbs, 0 fat, 28 protein

  • 1oz skim milk in coffee (I do 3 oz skim milk throughout the day in 3 cups of coffee for 4 carbs)
  • 1 IP cappucino packet
  • 1/2 IP vanilla packet  (I put 1.5 product in 16oz water plus cinnamon…..great!)

Lunch – 301 calories, 9 carbs, 11 fat, 41 protein

  • 1.5 IP vanilla packet
  • 2 large hard boiled eggs
  • 1 oz skim milk in coffee

Snack – 150 calories, 16 carb, 4 fat, 16 protein

  • 1 IP choco raspberry bar
  • 1 oz skim in coffee

Dinner – 654 calories, 22 carbs, 33 fat, 69 protein

  • Ground Beef 93% Lean, 8 oz
  • Mushrooms Pieces & Stems – Green Giant, 0.6 cup
  • Ideal Protein Southwest Cheese Curls, 0.25 serving
  • Egg substitute, liquid (Egg Beaters), 2 tbsp
  • Olive Oil, 2 1tsp
  • Bacon, 2 medium slices, cooked
  • Brussels sprouts, cooked, 175 grams

Grand total for the day – 1250 calories, 54 carbs (41 net carbs), 48 fat, 153 protein

Tomorrow I will probably have 200 calories less because it will be 2 days after my run and my hunger won’t be bad, and I’m not planning to run again until Thursday night.

The climb

2013 Chicago Fight for Air Climb

2013 Chicago Fight for Air Climb

Celebrating after the 2013 Chicago Fight for Air Climb

Celebrating after the 2013 Chicago Fight for Air Climb

Today was the day for my first “official” fitness challenge for 2013 in my new body and for my new life.  3 of us climbed one tower of the Presidential Towers in downtown Chicago at 10:15am local time (and today we “sprung forward” for daylight savings time, so it felt like 9:15am).  We had 2 who did not show up for whatever reason, and 1 showed up for moral support after spraining her ankle a week ago.

One building was 45 floors and it was not that bad!!!  We climbed as a team, and waited for the slowest of us, and found victory together!  It was a very well-organized event, and the volunteers were incredible!  Our team raised almost $1400 (and you can pretty much say double that with many doing a corporate match).

One funny thing was some of the men from the show Chicago Fire climbed up as well, and they were right behind us and passed us at one point.  I didn’t realize it was them until some women ahead of us were very excited and told me.  I just knew they were really good looking men!  LOL!

It took us just under 20 minutes to do one building, and next year I’m going to do more.  It was soooo fun, and was for such a great cause!  A year ago I would have never been able to do it, and I did it today with only a bit of perspiration on my brow!


20 minutes


I did it.  My couch to 5k app, week 6, day 2 asked me to run for 20 minutes straight, and I did it.  Somewhere in the middle of it the song “Turn the World Around” by Harry Belafonte came on my iPod.  Harry Belafonte always reminds me of my family.  During WWII my grandfather Klitzke was stationed in the Caribbean, where he learned to love calypso music….and brought this love back to the rest of the family.  So I grew up listening to, and loving, Harry.

Harry was the first concert I ever saw as a wee child.  My dad ran the spotlight at the Holiday Star in Merrillville, IN, back before it became non-union.  He got one of my mom’s albums of Harry autographed for me and my mom and I saw the concert there.  Years later my mom, grandma, and I saw Harry at Ravinia.

Turn the World Around was a song I could never find on a recording until a fairly recent (like in the last 15 years) album came out…but the first time I heard the song I was a child, and he was on The Muppet Show.

I was in love with this song.

So here it is, 30-some years later, and I’m 112 pounds less than I was a year ago, and I’m running for 20 minutes.  And when “Turn the World Around” came on my playlist, I felt the spirit of my grandpa Klitzke, and my gramma Klitzke, so happy for me.  And I thought about that little blonde girl in the late 70’s watching The Muppet Show, and I wondered why she ever thought for a moment that she couldn’t do anything she wanted?  Because it’s so obvious that she can, and has, and will continue.

Life is simply wonderful.

My own “Super Size Me” experiment


Hello everyone and happy Tuesday! I’m actually relieved it’s January 15th, as my b-day was yesterday. I will admit that unlike the holidays, I went ahead and experimented with foods I had not eaten in a long time (7.5 months). I would say “treated”, but the way I feel now it was certainly NOT a treat. I feel like I harmed my body, knowingly and willingly. I will NOT do that again. I feel like in so many ways I am on my way to really being a survivor of food addiction. I actually PREFER eating healthy. I PREFER treating my body as a temple. I would have never thought I would be that person. I used to dream about pizza and sweet treats. I ate pizza for the first time in 7.5 months yesterday and honestly, for me it was “eh”. I’m not saying I stopped eating it, because throughout the day I at my entire 4 slice personal pizza, among many other non-protocol foods since Friday night (birthday weekend, if you will). And it was all “eh”.

super size


I never saw the movie, but I feel like I did my own Super Size Me experiment. I’m grateful I did it, because it proves to me that I’m a different person now, thanks to IP and all of you and many other people in my life.

I’m not even going to step on the scale for several days. I know I’m over 200, even if it’s fake weight. I honestly feel 300 pounds again….sluggish, headache-y, taking antacid (woke up last night with acid reflux….first time since May 2012).

As I had always planned, today I begin again, grateful for the experiment that proved to me beyond a shadow of a doubt that I am a different person as I begin this new year as a 39-year-old. I’m excited to be back on Phase 1 and will rock these last pounds to my goal, and can’t wait to share it with all of you.

Blessings to all on this Tuesday!

Happy 199 Day


What?  You don’t celebrate 199 Day? You don’t even know what 199 Day is?  Let me share with you what I know it to be.

The last time I weighed anything with a “1” as the starting number I was in college.  I remember vividly standing in the 3rd floor bathroom of the SAI house at 720 Emerson St, Evanston, IL weighing myself on one of those old school manual scales where you have to move the thingie over from 100 to 150 to 200 to 250, etc…and weighing in the mid-190’s (after losing some weight…maybe 10 pounds) and saying (out loud mind you) that “I will never weigh in the 200’s again”.  Ah, the hopes and dreams of a 20-21 year old.

So here today, on January 8th, 6 days before I turn 39, I am 199.5.  The first time in 18-19 years I’ve had a “1” as my starting digit.  That, my friends, is 199 Day.

As of 199 Day I’ve lost 105.4 pounds.  This means (do the math) on May 30th, 2012 I began my journey at a very unhealthy 304.9 pounds.  There.  I said it.

Some thanks to the following:

  1. Ideal Protein & Dr. Tranh – may God bless Dr. Tranh and his development team.  They put together a HEALTHY program that really works.  This program is a true God-send for anyone like me with a food addiction.
  2. My Ideal Protein Coach, Suzanne Janusz, at the Palatine, IL office of WomanCare.  Her calm, genuine, and knowledgeable support has made all the difference.
  3. My Ideal Protein Sparkpeople community forum.  May the person who came up with the recipe for turning IP Cereal into pancakes win the Powerball and live out the rest of their days on a private island, should they choose to.  These folks on this forum have been a second form of therapy for me, in every way.  I’m eternally grateful.
  4. My mom & dad, for supporting me my entire life, but especially during the last 7.5 months.  They went through “weird food Thanksgiving” and “non-traditional Christmas” and have themselves lost 15-ish pounds (mom) and 50-ish pounds (dad), and have lengthened their lives and improved it immensely.
  5. My work friends.  You deserve a medal for all of the high-octane crabby days, and endless whining of me saying “Another potluck, really????”.  Your support has been tremendous, and I will forever be in your debt.
  6. My work spouse, who has given me faith in men, and shown me such loving, brotherly support along my journey.  Your funny, encouraging comments along the way “eat a hamburger”, etc…have given me support in ways I can’t even express.  My cool “100” patch for when I hit that milestone, and the support that you and your real spouse will run with me during my first 5k is a blessing in my life.
  7. All of my friends from work & “real life”….there is not one of you….NOT ONE OF YOU…who has even subconsciously tried to sabotage me.  Your support of my feeling comfortable in only 3 restaurants (give or take) has been fabulous.  Speaking of which….
  8. The staff of the Outback Steakhouse in Buffalo Grove, IL.  You know you frequent a place when they recognize you.  Thanks for dealing with all of my different food requests.
  9. Freya Taylor, author of “Suddenly Skinny: A Weight Loss Survival Guide”.  I’ve read your book over and over like it’s my job.  I quote it, and have lived it.
  10. Brian.  For treating me like a queen.  And being ecstatic when I won the weigh-off.
  11. Gus. For your support, including letting me win the weigh-off.
  12. My FB friends for being SOOOO virtually supportive.  Reading my posts along my journey, “liking” posts and pics, and giving me comments of encouragement have given me another form of support and accountability.
  13. Many others.  To be continued.

I’m writing this like I’ve met my final goal.  My final weight goal is somewhere between 160-180.  But I now believe with my entire being that the real goal is living life to the fullest, healthiest way possible.

Love to everyone on this day, 199 Day.  How will you celebrate?  It’s a work day for me (it’s not a National Holiday, especially because no one knew when it would be), and I’m going home and cooking a fabulous, on-plan dinner.  That, and not stepping on the scale for several days.


Assessing the damage


Hope everyone who celebrates it had a great Christmas!

In December I started the month on a roll of weight loss. Then it got really challenging, and I compensated by eating on protocol, but supplementing with too much artificial sweetener (like a whole pack of Trident gum in a day for several days in a row, as well as several pumps of sugar-free Davinci syrup in my coffee), and I stalled between 12/10 and 12/25.

Yesterday, Christmas Day, I went ahead and ate off-protocol, even though my family was supportive and I didn’t have to. I went into that bit of addictive thinking of “whatever, I haven’t lost weight for a while anyway, and it’s Christmas”. So I indulged. Mostly on sugar. I did not have bread, but I did have cheese, as well as other off protocol items. And you know what? Today I feel like a truck ran over me.

I feel stiff. I feel heavy. I feel blah. My body just doesn’t feel right.

I’m so glad I had this day. I am now committed, more than ever, to myself, the rest of my journey, and Ideal Protein. I’m determined to meet my goal weight by my one year anniversary on IP (May 30th, 2013) if not before. I’m also not married to my goal weight.

I’m 5’7″ with a medium frame. I may be happy at 180. I may be happy at 170. I may be happy at 160. I may want to go to 155. I won’t know until I get closer to these numbers. So right now, and in the recent past I’ve chosen 160 as my goal weight. So today I begin again, and I hope you all begin with me, if not today, then on January 2nd.

Today I weighed in at 207.8.  We begin again, and go forth!

Rock on!

Weight loss is a mental game


So, pending the Christmas miracle….I will NOT hit 199.9 by Christmas.  I really thought I was on the road to hitting that goal.  However, the losses have ground to a halt.  Look at these crazy numbers…

12/10/12 204.85
12/14/12 203.71
12/15/12 203.73
12/16/12 204.96
12/17/12 204.26
12/18/12 205.1
12/19/12 203.97

So 204.85 (from 12/10) to 203.97 (on 12/19) means I’m not even down one full pound in 9 days.  I’m only down 5.4 for the month of December.  This month could actually be the worst yet, followed only by October.

The only things I can speculate that have messed me up are the following:

  1. I ate 4 pecan halves, sugared, at Christkindlmarkt in Chicago on Sunday.  4.  As in could barely even taste the damn things.
  2. While I’ve been in the 30’s for net carbs, there have been a couple of days where I hit 52 for overall carbs (really?).
  3. I had a couple of higher-calorie days (like 1250 calories instead of 950-1050), but still under 50 for carbs.
  4. A couple of days I was light on the veggies, but there are other days I get more than the recommended 4 cups…but again, see point #2.
  5. I had my period the week of Thanksgiving, then again 2 weeks later, and then today it started AGAIN out of nowhere.

I know I will get there.  I know the 199.9 number is arbitrary.  I know I’ve already won the war.  It just still would have been nice to have made it for Christmas.  I realize the biggest Christmas gift to myself is the health I’ve given myself by losing 100 pounds.  I just hope the last 25-45 don’t take me 6 months to lose…..

OK, I will stop whining now.  Thank you for indulging me.



The second 100 (and 1) days


Today marks day 201 on Ideal Protein.  I can’t believe how quickly the days have gone.

May 30th, 2012 – 304.9 pounds

December 17th, 2012 – 204.26 pounds

200 days, 100 pounds.  Not bad.  Not bad at all.  I am ashamed to admit I had a moment of self-pity today, though, when I realized I probably was not going to make my (arbitrary) goal of 199.9 by Christmas.  While nothing is impossible, it has been a long time since I lost over 4 pounds in one week…..so it’s looking more like a New Year’s goal now.  In light of what happened on Friday with all of the children and teachers killed, it just seems so selfish to feel badly about my numbers for one second!  My sparkpeople Ideal Protein community reminded me of the following:

“199.9 is just an arbitrary number. The magic already happened ! You are 100 pounds lighter, this Xmas than in previous years. That transformation is astonishing ! That’s an accomplishment to celebrate.
You lost 37% of your starting weight. Doctors often beg their patients to lose 5-10% and promise significant health benefits at that rate. Imagine how much quality of life you have already snatched back!”

I’m grateful for that online community.  They’ve gotten me through more than once, and I’m sure I’ve done the same for others.  So today I’m just going to be grateful.  For that online community, for Dr. Tranh, for my coach Suzanne, for my health, for my weight loss, and for my family & friends.