Week 4 Weigh-in


Date: 7/2/17

Loss(-)/Gain(+):  -27.3 lbs

Current Weight:  260.4 lbs

Wait, where are weeks 1-3?

On June 4th I began my all-liquid pre-surgery diet at 287.7.  Today we are 4 weeks from June 4th.  So there you go.

I’m not counting from the surgery date, because I want to acknowledge the hard work that went into the 2 weeks and 2 days before my surgery.

I’ve been busy having gastric bypass


For real.  On June 20th, 2017 I took the plunge.  It was a 10+ year decision that I finally made, and so far, so good.

In September 2006, at my highest ever weight (before or since) of 327 I went to a weight loss surgery seminar put on by the Kane Center.  In November 2006 my husband at the time and I decided to end our marriage, and I put the brakes on the surgery.  I am a firm believer of “one big life change at a time” when you can control such things.

In January 2010, Dr. James Kane removed my gallbladder, and because he was concerned about my weight (around 280 at the time), he recommended I come to the seminar again.  That time I took my mom.  Various things played into why I didn’t pursue it then….mostly because my family doctor at the time recommended I pay thousands of dollars to a personal trainer she just hired for her clinic.

As well documented on my blog, I lost a ton of weight (304.7 to 185.0 to be exact) between May 2012 and May 2013, and never properly transitioned to maintenance.  Then mom died in 2014 and I ballooned up to 283, when in February 2015 I started medi-weightloss.  I had lost a significant amount (from 283 to 225) when in June 2015 they closed their office, and yet again, I had nothing to transition to.  In September I went to another “money making” clinic where I did Optifast for 6 until I just could NOT continue with it (caused me a lot of stomach discomfort).  I transitioned to a weird, hippy nutritionist in the same office who had me on rice protein (gag), and I left that office in December 2015, having difficulties with missing my mom for the 2nd holiday season.

In 2016 I just ate at whim, when in July I decided to try the Renfrew eating disorder program.  I thought I was a binge eater, only to realize in the program that I’m only a binge eater after deprivation.  It was a good program, and I met some really good younger ladies (in their late teens and early 20’s), however it was really skewed towards anorexia and bulimia.  There were some good eating habits I learned, but after 6 weeks I graduated and began working with a nutritionist, who charged $50 per visit and did not deal with insurance companies.  After 3 visits with her and just hemorrhaging money, I ended that relationship.

In January 2017 my aunt told me about a friend of the family who had undergone gastric bypass in November 2016 and was recovering fantastically.  After ruminating internally for a few weeks I signed up for my 3rd (and what turned out to be final) seminar at the Kane Center, and also called that friend of the family.

The statistics are what really convinced me.  If you lose weight “naturally”, in 5 years you have a 5% chance of maintaining that weight loss.  If you lose with bariatric surgery (along with healthy eating and exercise), in 5 years you have an 80% chance of maintaining that weight loss.

After a lifetime of up and down, I decided to take the 80% chance.

In the coming days I will write more about how I came to the decision of gastric bypass over other surgery options, as well as how it’s all going.

I doubt I’ll have many readers left, but I hope by sharing my story I may help someone else, as well as having another outlet for myself as I deal with this huge life change.

Thank you for reading!



My boyfriend has never had a weight problem.

My boyfriend’s ex-wife never has either.

She and I are the same height.  5’7″.  I was told the other day that when the ex would reach 135 pounds she felt fat.



As supportive as my boyfriend has been, and believe me, he’s been very good, it still stung to hear that.  Especially when idiotic things come out of his mouth like “well, you could weigh that too” and “here, let me pull up the recommended weight charts online” where he proceeded to tell me that at 5’7″, 158 pounds is at the very upper end of “normal” and that over 158 is considered overweight.

Yeah, I know.

Where you lose me is the following:

1.  I have no desire to lose 95 more pounds.

2.  When you are 5’7″ and have NEVER had a weight problem the calories in you need to maintain 135 pounds is A LOT MORE THAN someone who used to weigh 327 pounds at their heaviest who now weighs 135 pounds.  Whatever the amount of calories I would get to eat in a day to maintain 135 pounds is simply not maintainable to me.  Because if I only get to eat 1000 calories per day, to his ex’s 1600 calories per day….that 600 calories is a HUGE DIFFERENCE.  But if at 175 pounds I can eat 1800 a day to maintain, well, that’s reasonable.  Again, I don’t know the exact calorie counts….but I’ve read several times in several places that once you’ve basically messed your body up (with extra fat deposits, extra skin, goofed up metabolism) you do not get to eat the same amount of calories for the same height/weight as someone who has never had a weight problem.

3.  I’m already off of my blood pressure medicine (did I report that to all of you?  I’m so inconsistent in my writing this time…..), so I’m already a lot healthier.  My bloodwork is all within the correct ranges for cholesterol, triglycerides, etc……and my doctor says that if I got to 175 that would really be all I would need to lose.

So I told my boyfriend that to be safe he shouldn’t mention his ex-wife within 5 minutes of mentioning anything about my weight.

In all fairness, he has told me several times how proud he is of me, that I’m doing a great job, that he wouldn’t be able to do it, etc…….so I just chalk this up to human error.


But she’s still a bitch.  Just sayin’.

Week 20 Check In


Date: 6/30/15

Loss(-)/Gain(+):  -6.5 lbs

Current Weight:  226.9 lbs

Well, I’m up 0.9 from my unofficial weigh-in 2 days ago, but that is easily explained by the fact that I’m taking cold medicine (the liquid stuff just works better at night) and sugar-free lozenges (which do contain some carbs).  Every time I’ve been on a low-carb eating plan and had a cold my weight loss stalls because of taking those items.  However, it’s not really a stall because overall I’m down for the week.

In 20 weeks I’ve lost 55.1 pounds.  No bad.  But I have a lot more I want to lose left.  Just under 50% there.

My stats are:

Starting Weight Current Weight Goal Weight Weeks on Plan Total Lost Weekly Avg Monthly Avg Pounds to Goal
282 226.9 175 20 55.1 2.755 11.92915 51.9

Even with the month of June basically a wash I still have great weekly/monthly averages.

Somehow it feels like it’s happening at a slower rate this time, but i know it’s not.  I guess I’m just impatient.

There have been a few things in my closet I’ve put away into fat bags, but for the most part I’m still wearing a lot of the 3x and 2x t-shirts I started out with in February.  I’m not as interested in spending money along the way to showcase my new body, but I probably should go out and spend a little money on a couple of well-fitting shorts and t-shirts to get through the next few weeks when I have occasions to wear something that actually fits.

Weeks 16 – 19 – I’m still here!!!


OK, things are fine.  First the stats….

  • Week 16, Tuesday, 6/2/15, 227.8 (conversion to my scale from medi-weightloss……a loss of almost 2 pounds according to my scale, which ran a pound higher than medi’s)
  • Week 17, Tuesday, 6/9/15, 228.4…..so a gain of 0.6.  Not bad considering I had family in for 2 days, and I at a tiny bit off of plan going to restaurants with no great choices, etc….
  • Week 18, Tuesday, 6/16/15, ???….on a short trip to Vegas and did not weigh myself.

Let me pause here and state that I consciously ate off plan on my trip.  I decided that after 18 weeks I “deserved” to be a little looser.  A spring break in-between semesters kind of thing.  So I enjoyed myself.

  • Week 19, Tuesday, 6/22/15, 233.4….not bad considering I had a week off, and started eating back on plan on Monday, 6/21 (I didn’t weigh myself because I wanted to have one “good” day under my belt before my weigh in.  I thought it would be more like 235, so I was pleasantly surprised by 233.4.

So Week 20 is tomorrow.  As of Sunday I weighed 226.0…..so overall I think it was a great decision to relax for one week.  After all, that is what the future and maintenance will be about…..enjoying and then reigning it back in.

Another thing I want to state is on Tuesday, 6/9 I met with my family doctor, and we decided I would just stop taking the appetite suppressant (whatever it was called) cold turkey.  She said if I didn’t really notice it helping, then it probably wasn’t, and there was no need to taper off.

Well, that week I was hungry as hell, but stayed on plan (just ate more calories), then went on vacation and ate whatever.  Now that I’m back on plan this week I’m managing the plan and hunger fine.  So I think going off of the appetite suppressant was the right decision, and then sort of shocking my body by eating whatever on vacation actually helped my cause.

So that is the update!  I will try to remember to pop on tomorrow and give the official Week 20 numbers.


Two other thoughts



I plan on keeping Tuesdays as my official weigh-in day.  Official where I report it to all of you here on the interwebs.  My stalkers.


Instead of buying the expensive 100-calorie packs of almonds I decided to buy a large bag of 32 ounces for $9.99 and baggie all of them up myself.  With the nutrition label set for 30g (or 1/4 cup) at 170 calories, I did about two thousand snack baggies of 15g each, or 85 calories.  Took probably 30-45 minutes.  Don’t know how much money I actually saved, You have to figure time, as well as cost of baggies.  Probably not much.  One thing I know for sure…..it takes some emotional strength to measure out two thousand baggies of almonds at 15g each.  Or insanity.

Week 15 Check-In


Date: 5/26/15

Loss(-)/Gain(+):  -4.5 lbs

Current Weight:  229.5 lbs

So this was my last weigh-in at the Medi-Weightloss Clinic of Deerfield, Illinois, before they close their doors on 5/31.  According to their scale I weighed 228.8, but I’m converting my “official” numbers to be off of my own scale, a Fitbit Wi-fi scale.

I have decided to go it alone, with periodic visits to my family doctor.  I need to change my appointment so that I see her before my phentermine pills run out (I have 3 weeks worth left).  If she doesn’t want me on the pills, fine, but then I need to understand from her how to taper off properly.  I also want to understand from her what her opinion is on B1/B6/B12 shots….which I received B1/B6 shots once per week and B12 twice per week.  I have no idea if the shots helped, or what they were to help…..

Here are my stats:

Starting Weight Current Weight Goal Weight Weeks on Plan Total Lost Weekly Avg Monthly Avg Pounds to Goal
282 229.5 175 15 52.5 3.5 15.155 54.5

I certainly do not think I will lose 3.5 pounds per week average the entire time.  I expect it to slow down.  If I lose an average of 2.5 pounds per week I will hit my goal by my mom’s birthday, 10/25.

OK, laundry is calling.  More soon.  🙂