WHERE HAVE I BEEN????????
At home. Eating.
Yeah, sorry to say it, but I fell off the wagon for a while. So let’s do some catching up, shall we?
What do I weigh now? I have no idea. I do know that over the course of some months (June 2013 – January 2014) I went from borderline size 12/14 up to size 18…and those were tight. I went back on my ideal protein diet (the Ideal Protein diet done my way on the cheap) on Thursday, 1/16. I had to get through my holidays, which end in the middle of January after my birthday.
I decided not to frighten myself into a depression by stepping on the scale until I’m back in a size 14. I know how to do this diet. I know how to lose weight. I know what I feel like when I’m in ketosis. I know all of it. Therefore, I’m not worried about a number. I just know when I was in a size 14 (almost 12) I was looking great and feeling great…and I have all sorts of summer clothes waiting for me in that size. I’m bound and determined to wear those clothes when I go on vacation this summer to Vegas with my guy.
Yes, my guy and I are still together. Yesterday was 10 months. He’s a good apple, and is very supportive of my journey. When I’m on my plan, he’s supportive. When I’m on not my plan he’s not an enabler, and does not judge. He doesn’t realize this, but he actually helped me get my mind right again when he told me after Thanksgiving and before Christmas that I should probably just not do the diet right now….to give myself some time. And because I did that I’m now ready again to begin again.
Why did I gain the weight? I will tell you all about it in the blogs to come. I’m an emotional eater, and there has been a lot of emotion: new job, poor health for my mom, adjusting to working from home, worries about other loved ones……
No excuses, but I am an emotional eater, and we knew that. The good news is while I know I’m well above the 200 mark, I refused to buy any pants that started with a 2 in the size….so even though my 18’s are still snug, they are looser than they were a week ago….and in another few weeks they will be loose, and then in another after that I will be able to put them in a bag and store them.
So hold on…more to come. Thanks for reading!