For real for real….and I mean it this time

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Day 1 begins today!  Yes, it’s day 1 again!  YAY!!!!!!

What is going on??????

I always knew part of my journey was going to be learning how to deal with stress.  During the vast majority of my weight loss in 2012 I was relatively stress-free, and I just was in the mind-frame that nothing was going to derail me.

I’ve gotten away from that mindset.  The “big whiny baby” part of my subconscious has been screaming louder than the rational, adult part.  The baby wants to eat any and all foods again, only has not learned how to do that in moderation.  The baby wants to not eat as many vegetables.  The baby wants to do whatever she wants.

I’ve had some stresses in my life.  BIG DEAL.  We all have them.  What I will be getting back to TODAY is dealing with those stresses in ways that will not add more stress to the situation.  Yes, eating ice cream is a lovely 5 minute diversion from stress…..but then makes the stress worse because I emotionally/mentally/physically feel bad afterwards.

We are at a crisis point……I’ve got about 4 things in my closet that I feel comfortable wearing right now and I WILL NOT buy larger sizes!!!!!!!!!!!  So this bus is turning around immediately!!!!!!!

What is my plan?  Low-ish carbs (only going to eat “good carbs” that are complex), “good sugars” like fruit (I’m not going seek out fruit, but I’m not going to deny myself fruit either).  Basically I need to ask myself “Is this providing me nutrition?” and if the answer is “no”, then I won’t eat or drink it.

Onward!!!

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2 responses »

  1. hey…I am still here and again wanna add my 2 cents.
    Seems to me your an all or nothing kinda girl—I also seem to have the most success when I am on a very strict and very specific plan…but then easily get irritated and resentful-
    I have a very good friend who has recently been trying to convince me that I need to approach the last 20 lbs differently, it is really weighing on me (haha) so I am gonna throw this at you for your opinion;
    since I tend to go completely bonkers when I veer off my plan, she thinks I will never long term be finished, so she suggests what worked for her husband. Initially a cheat meal ( I hate the word cheat, but let’s face it–it’s cheating ourselves)
    anyway…cheat meal to start, including dessert (one specific planned dessert)
    then when he got to his goal a cheat day…again specific and planned-and he always makes it when he goes for a run the next morning, kinda cleansing for the week ahead.
    I asked him if he spends all week thinking about his cheat foods–he says yes, including during his run, but he is much more selective and happily doesn’t beat himself up over it at all!
    I would love to not beat myself up over indulgences!
    Wonder if I am strong enough to do that…it would be quite a relief to have some flexibility weekly instead of maybe in 3 months…
    thoughts…

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