Enough with the proclamations already, huh? Last post on June 20th has such a naive quality about it……how cute.
Since June 20th I’ve made poor food choices and gained weight. I’ve also gone on another quick trip to Vegas (sort of related, but not completely).
How much weight have I gained? I struggle with coming completely clean because there is one person in my life I don’t want to know….but there are so many of you that rely on my complete transparency that I feel I should just lay it out there.
This morning I weighed in at 211.6. For real. Did I really gain 25 pounds in a month? Did that really happen? Fake weight, water weight, inflammation, hormones, whatever. Point is my pants are tight and the scale says what it says.
I’ve written a lot about sugar and how evil it is. I’ve decided that sugar is at the root of my addiction and must be eliminated for now.
I’ve gone to some online OA meetings (Overeaters Anonymous) and they use the 12 steps and tenets of “Not forever, but not today” or something like that. So I’m back to that mantra.
My dad always says “today is the first day of the rest of your life”. So I guess proclaiming this as Day 1 (again) is ok, because every day is Day 1 to a degree, right?
This post is going to be long and rambling. Hang in there with me, please.
This is my plan for the short-term…..eat under 55 carbs per day (like I’m on Ideal Protein) to get under 200 so my clothes fit better. Once I’m under 200 I will reevaluate and may add in some Ezekiel bread, almonds, and fruit and switch to more of a calorie-counting plan.
I will not eat any refined sugar until I reach 170/160 (whatever my goal is). I WILL allow myself some fruit, some carbs, nuts, and cheese once I’m under 200. I WILL NOT be using Ideal Protein products because I’m simply tired of spending the money. I will use EAS whey protein for my protein shakes in the morning & for lunch. As for supplements, I’m rationing what I have left from IP, and will use my own once I run out.
I’m going to win this war. While I love sugar, and I love being able to go out for ice cream in the summer…..I love looking & feeling fit more. So here we go!
This is all part of the journey. I’m proud of myself that I only allowed myself to get to 211. I could have kept eating and gaining. But I don’t like how I look and I don’t like how I feel. So that’s that.
I just have to get through the first 2-3 days and I’ll be home free. 🙂 My body will rebel with headaches, etc….but then I will feel great again, and I can’t wait!!!
Another thing that irritates me about sugar is it makes me sweat. I sweat way less when I’m off of sugar.
What am I doing about exercise in the meantime? Nothing while I’m getting my body into ketosis and losing the first 12 pounds or so. Once I’m under 200 and introducing more carbs/fruits I will begin my running again.