Hiding from myself

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Last night after I wrote my posting I decided to go back on IP for the next week or two at the most to shed the weight I gained, and then force myself to transition off SLOWLY and not binge on sugar.  I have enough product to get the weight off I gained.  I’m not happy with where I am weight-wise.  It’s amazing how different 204 feels from 189.  My clothes are tighter, I carry 14 pounds of it around my middle and 1 extra pound in my face.  That’s an exaggeration, but you know what I mean.

My mom is actually doing me a favor and calling the clinic to cancel me out of my future appointments, stating financial hardship.  I feel like a weenie not being able to call myself, but what are you going to do?  Although I’ve had some hard times recently with my mom, she still has my back 1000% of the time (yes, I meant to put 1000), and for that I’m eternally grateful.

So the plan is to get to 190 in the next week or two via IP, but I’m still going to run and exercise.  Then I’ll phase off and continue to run, and lose the remaining weight via mindful eating and exercise.

I appreciate the nudges and comments from you, more than you will ever know.  I get so much from all of you by sharing my story.  It’s just another way of staying accountable.

Hugs to one and all today!

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