My weight loss has affected those around me in interesting ways.
There is the obvious positive effects, but there are some negative ones too.
It’s been extremely difficult bridging to being a “normal” 39-year old adult woman whose mother lives with her. And no, my mother does not read my blog. For many personal family reasons which I will not delve into here, there are a lot of issues in my life that contributed to my becoming a food addict. My mother and I have a co-dependent relationship, which was only exacerbated by the fact that I lived the life of a spinster in the last 6 years since my divorce, and led a very low-key non-active lifestyle my entire adult life.
It’s been very difficult for her to get used to my being “out and about” more. Very difficult. It’s been extremely difficult for her having a man around the house often (with my now being in a relationship).
This has been so heavy on my heart the last 3 months. It’s taken away from the joy I should be feeling with this new relationship. It’s been so stressful that this is actually the biggest reason why I’ve gotten derailed over the last 3 months.
I’m not derailed currently….Wednesday will mark 2 full weeks back on plan. I do not plan on getting derailed, and quite frankly, if the last 2 days did not derail me, then I should be able to get through anything short of an alien invasion (why do I always mention alien invasions?).
I’m just tired of fighting.