I’m so conflicted because I am satisfied, to a degree, with where I am currently weight-wise. How could I not be thrilled with 189 when I was 305 one year ago? How could I not think I’m pretty, and “normal-sized” when I buy clothes in the ladies section and not the women’s or plus-sized? Would it be so terrible to stay where I am right now and learn to maintain right here?
I don’t think it would be terrible. Not at all.
I would feel more secure if I lost the 20 pounds…..but I just don’t know if my body will budge. I first got to 189 at the end of March. So it’s been 2 months, with 2 significant lapses in the diet.
The diet works, the diet works, the diet works, the diet works.
I feel like I’m at the point of the journey where I need a little boost. I need someone in my life to tell me I’m perfect the weight I am, and if I never lost another pound, that’s fine. If I heard those words it would give me the boost I need to go forth. Because then I would know I was doing it 100% for me, and not partially out of fear of losing the person.