OK, considering the vast majority of my posts are positive I can’t beat myself up too much about last night’s meltdown. You all know I love Ideal Protein. You all know I’ve lost 100+ pounds since May 30th, 2012. You all know.
It’s also good to be transparent with my struggles, because I don’t want anyone to think, not for a moment, that this has been easy. Nor do I want anyone to think that just because I’ve lost most of the weight I want to lose that the struggle is over. This will be a lifelong struggle for me, and that’s just the truth.
With any struggle there will be easier times and harder times. At this juncture it’s been a bit more difficult, for many reasons. And going through sugar/carb withdrawal 2 weeks in a row is nothing I would recommend. Those closest to me, emotionally and by proximity, have bared the brunt of the emotional roller coaster and I’m really sorry about that. I’m human. I continue to try to improve, but I am human.
That said I’m going to view food as medicine for now, and nothing more. I have to look at everything I can’t eat right now as poison, and maybe that will help. I don’t know.
All I can do is try.
I really miss running because it was such a great stress relief and now it’s like I have nothing for stress relief.
191.2 this morning. If I could just never see the 190’s again I will be a very happy girl. And the only one who can ensure I never see them again is the woman writing this blog.
So here I go. Again.