I can’t write about this without really writing about it. So I guess I can’t write about it. I’ll just list what I’m feeling.
In no particular order:
- feeling like I might vomit
- nervous energy
- other things not for a blog
So there you have it. Clear as mud.
In other news, I’m down a pound…back to 190-something from 191-something yesterday. WHATEVER. I chewed a pack and a half of gum today getting through a work fire I needed to attend to, and just overall feeling very PMS-like.
Things certainly happen when you least expect it, and then it’s like the earth shifts. I’m a bit unsettled. I had a picture of what I thought the next few months might look like…..and now it’s looking different. However, if the end result is what you wanted, does it really matter that it’s now instead of 6 months from now? I’m thinking no. Only time will tell.
After all, there’s never the perfect time for [insert life event here….example: divorce, death, job loss, tornado damage, falling for someone and having a someone when you didn’t have a someone even one week earlier and now all you want is to be with the someone and it’s probably not rational to feel that way].