Daily Archives: February 16, 2013

And just like that I’m excited

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So today’s weigh-in put me at 197.49.  I also climbed 22 flights of stairs today at work.  Now I’m starting to have little thoughts of wondering what I will look like at 180, 170, 160?  I’ve also realized that I don’t believe I was ever lower than 185 in college, so this fall when my dad and I go to all of the home football games (thanks to my dad’s awesome birthday present of season tickets for us next year), I will actually weigh less than when I was a student there.  Unbelievable.

And, have I ever told the 172 day on here?  OK, I’l blog about that on 172 day.  Anyway, I weighed 172 as a freshman in high school…..and that was after dieting……so the last time I weighed 160 and lower would have been middle school and younger.  14 years old.  25 years ago.  Unbelievable.

There are people I’ve known for many years who have never seen me at the weight I am now (my ex-husband).  There are many others (people I met in high school or later) that only knew me in the 180’s or heavier.  So only a few friends from childhood and my family knew me when I was under 172, and I was a child then.

This has been a very incredible journey.  I’m so very grateful it finally clicked for me.  Yes, I know maintenance will be tough, but this has been tough too.  Life is tough.  Being morbidly obese was the toughest punishment I could have ever put myself through, and I don’t intend to ever hate myself like that again.  Yes, food is great.  Food is delicious.  But nothing tastes like thin feels……and I finally believe that statement.  It’s about time.