Monthly Archives: December 2012

Back in the Saddle


OK, I was barely out of the saddle….it’s not like I grazed my way through the holidays.  Hardly.  I ate too much gum for 15 days and then ate some off protocol items on Christmas Day.  I was back at it on the 26th, and today is Day #2 of pure phase 1.

Weighed in at 205.8 this morning….2 pounds lighter than yesterday morning.  Heading in the right direction again, and feeling better as well.  Saw my coach today and she told me about the “sugar hangover” that I experienced yesterday.  Was really strange.  Really felt like a hangover.

45 pounds just seems like a drop in the bucket.  I can’t wait to get there!  For Christmas I bought my mom a little picture scanner that is much quicker than traditional scanners, so I’ve scanned about 1500 pictures since Christmas Day.  I’ve seen pictures that show me as being at least 250 pounds since the late 1990’s.  All of the pics reaffirm why I am on this journey, and why I will see it through to the end and beyond.

I’m just so grateful I finally figured it out.

Assessing the damage


Hope everyone who celebrates it had a great Christmas!

In December I started the month on a roll of weight loss. Then it got really challenging, and I compensated by eating on protocol, but supplementing with too much artificial sweetener (like a whole pack of Trident gum in a day for several days in a row, as well as several pumps of sugar-free Davinci syrup in my coffee), and I stalled between 12/10 and 12/25.

Yesterday, Christmas Day, I went ahead and ate off-protocol, even though my family was supportive and I didn’t have to. I went into that bit of addictive thinking of “whatever, I haven’t lost weight for a while anyway, and it’s Christmas”. So I indulged. Mostly on sugar. I did not have bread, but I did have cheese, as well as other off protocol items. And you know what? Today I feel like a truck ran over me.

I feel stiff. I feel heavy. I feel blah. My body just doesn’t feel right.

I’m so glad I had this day. I am now committed, more than ever, to myself, the rest of my journey, and Ideal Protein. I’m determined to meet my goal weight by my one year anniversary on IP (May 30th, 2013) if not before. I’m also not married to my goal weight.

I’m 5’7″ with a medium frame. I may be happy at 180. I may be happy at 170. I may be happy at 160. I may want to go to 155. I won’t know until I get closer to these numbers. So right now, and in the recent past I’ve chosen 160 as my goal weight. So today I begin again, and I hope you all begin with me, if not today, then on January 2nd.

Today I weighed in at 207.8.  We begin again, and go forth!

Rock on!

Weight loss is a mental game


So, pending the Christmas miracle….I will NOT hit 199.9 by Christmas.  I really thought I was on the road to hitting that goal.  However, the losses have ground to a halt.  Look at these crazy numbers…

12/10/12 204.85
12/14/12 203.71
12/15/12 203.73
12/16/12 204.96
12/17/12 204.26
12/18/12 205.1
12/19/12 203.97

So 204.85 (from 12/10) to 203.97 (on 12/19) means I’m not even down one full pound in 9 days.  I’m only down 5.4 for the month of December.  This month could actually be the worst yet, followed only by October.

The only things I can speculate that have messed me up are the following:

  1. I ate 4 pecan halves, sugared, at Christkindlmarkt in Chicago on Sunday.  4.  As in could barely even taste the damn things.
  2. While I’ve been in the 30’s for net carbs, there have been a couple of days where I hit 52 for overall carbs (really?).
  3. I had a couple of higher-calorie days (like 1250 calories instead of 950-1050), but still under 50 for carbs.
  4. A couple of days I was light on the veggies, but there are other days I get more than the recommended 4 cups…but again, see point #2.
  5. I had my period the week of Thanksgiving, then again 2 weeks later, and then today it started AGAIN out of nowhere.

I know I will get there.  I know the 199.9 number is arbitrary.  I know I’ve already won the war.  It just still would have been nice to have made it for Christmas.  I realize the biggest Christmas gift to myself is the health I’ve given myself by losing 100 pounds.  I just hope the last 25-45 don’t take me 6 months to lose…..

OK, I will stop whining now.  Thank you for indulging me.



The second 100 (and 1) days


Today marks day 201 on Ideal Protein.  I can’t believe how quickly the days have gone.

May 30th, 2012 – 304.9 pounds

December 17th, 2012 – 204.26 pounds

200 days, 100 pounds.  Not bad.  Not bad at all.  I am ashamed to admit I had a moment of self-pity today, though, when I realized I probably was not going to make my (arbitrary) goal of 199.9 by Christmas.  While nothing is impossible, it has been a long time since I lost over 4 pounds in one week… it’s looking more like a New Year’s goal now.  In light of what happened on Friday with all of the children and teachers killed, it just seems so selfish to feel badly about my numbers for one second!  My sparkpeople Ideal Protein community reminded me of the following:

“199.9 is just an arbitrary number. The magic already happened ! You are 100 pounds lighter, this Xmas than in previous years. That transformation is astonishing ! That’s an accomplishment to celebrate.
You lost 37% of your starting weight. Doctors often beg their patients to lose 5-10% and promise significant health benefits at that rate. Imagine how much quality of life you have already snatched back!”

I’m grateful for that online community.  They’ve gotten me through more than once, and I’m sure I’ve done the same for others.  So today I’m just going to be grateful.  For that online community, for Dr. Tranh, for my coach Suzanne, for my health, for my weight loss, and for my family & friends.

I guess I’m pretty cute…..who knew?


My mom always told me that when I lost weight I would attract a higher caliber of man.  She has proven to be right.  Again.  I really would have made it easier on myself had I simply listened to her all these years.  🙂

I’m not going into detail about this, but suffice it to say I’ve never gotten this amount of male attention in my life…..


100 pounds


On 12/10 (Monday) I weighed in at 204.8, which made for 100.1 pounds lost since May 30th.  This morning, 12/12, I weighed in at 204.4.  This means I have 4.5 pounds to lose in 13 days……which barring something crazy beyond my control, I will hit 199.9 for Christmas.

I’m trying to spend the last days of my “2’s” reflecting….because I will never have a “2” as my starting number for weight again.  Ever.  Ever.