Will it ever get easier?


I wish I could say that it gets easier, but it doesn’t. However, that doesn’t mean we should give up. Yesterday I had a tough day because a coworker had a birthday, and she chose to go to a pizza place. The 2 types of restaurant I have REFUSED to go to are pizza places and Italian restaurants. Yes, I know both have things I could choose on the menu, but the temptations are just too great. However, I sucked it up and went because I wanted to do the right thing and celebrate my co-worker.

Let me tell you, it messed with my head the rest of the day. I was in a funk. I was unmotivated both at work and personally. I stuck to the protocol, but didn’t go to Zumba like I wanted to, and basically was just “in a mood” for the rest of the day. It’s just easier when I don’t have to be around those temptations.

And honestly, it’s not so much the temptations as what it does to my head afterwards. And yes, I know many of you will say “think about it not as you CAN’T have it, but you just DON’T eat that right now”. Whatever. That’s fine. But I still say an alcoholic wouldn’t go into a bar….or a gambling addict to Las Vegas…..so why should I put myself in the middle of a lion’s den? Don’t I prove to myself and everyone how strong I am every day without having to freaking go to a damn pizza restaurant?

As you can see, I’m still a bit messed up with it, but I move on. Today is a new day and thank the Lord above I don’t have to be surrounded by food today that I “don’t eat right now”.

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