Monthly Archives: August 2012

Reborn

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Today I finally did it.  I reached my first big milestone.  The weight I haven’t been at in at least 11 years (in my last post I said 15…but based on 2 outfits I bought just prior to my first wedding in 2001 that I’m now fitting in to, I was this weight in April 2001).  Yes, I said first wedding.  Two weddings, one marriage, someday I’ll bore you with that tale.

So today I’m 56.1 pounds down.  Day 91.  It hasn’t been the easiest week.  Monday I was faced with bagel & cream cheese, a celebratory lunch, and cupcakes.  Today I’ve been faced with an ice cream social.  For real.  For real for real.  Look, I don’t care what you eat, but while I can’t eat it, I really don’t want to be around it.  And no, I can’t eat the damn banana.  Fruit is not on my plan.  Yes, that’s right.  Yes, it is a healthy diet, thanks for asking.

Some people do have a bit of an issue with the Ideal Protein plan, but it’s not meant to be forever.  It’s high protein, very low carb, very very low sugar, and very low calories.  No fruit is on the diet because of the natural sugar.  Carrots, corn, peas, and potatoes are not on the diet either.  Yes, I’ve survived just fine.  That doesn’t mean I want bread and treats in front of my face.  Just like a recovering alcoholic doesn’t want vodka and beer bottles sitting on her desk, or a crack addict with crack sitting in front of him.  Don’t get pissed at me when I don’t go to an optional ice cream social “just come for the comraderie”.  Ugh.

But anyway, I weigh something today I haven’t in more than 11 years, so yay.  Yay for me!  Yay!

And again, who am I?

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It's me!

8/22/2012. 53.3 pounds lost! My face is looking thinner all the time!!!

53.3 pounds lost.  I am now at a weight I haven’t been at in well over 10 years.  When I reach 55 pounds lost (in 1.7 pounds from now) I will be in territory I don’t recall being in for probably 15 years.

I’m starting to look like myself again.  Interestingly enough, this is where body dysmorphia comes in, because I never saw myself as huge as I really was.  It was only in pictures that I would be horrified.  Now I’m starting to be ok with pictures again.

I have so much energy it’s crazy.  I’m actually researching mixed golf leagues, and have requested I meet up with my father for a golf refresher.  I think I will meet a quality man at a golf course, plus, it’s fun, plus, I’m good at it.  So there you go.

Yes, I mentioned meeting a quality man.  Well, the other guy isn’t “out” of the picture, but he really isn’t “in” either.  He needs to step up or step out.  Because who wouldn’t want me as a girlfriend?  Seriously?  Even at my weight I’m starting to look healthy(ier), and I’m smarter than hell, and witty.  I can dress myself and remember my address and know my letters and numbers to 100.  I mean come on!  By the time you are 46 (him, not me), and even after 6 months of on-again/off-again you can’t call me your girlfriend….you have baggage I don’t want to help cart around even with wheels.

Obviously, my confidence is shooting through the roof, and it’s about damn time.

It certainly isn’t always easy

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So the last 4 days I’ve been up and down.

Day 1.  XX3.8

Day 2.  XX4.4

Day 3.  XX3.4

Day 4.  XX4.6

Day 5.  XX4.2 (seriously?)

So my only theory about what is going on is my menstrual cycle is out of whack, which is common for this diet.  I’ve been a raving lunatic (PMS) for the last 3 days, and I feel like it could occur any moment.  It would be 2 weeks early, but whatever.  I have not had a drop of artificial sweetener since I went off of it almost 2 weeks ago.  I have not cheated on the diet at all.  So this is all it could be.

Ugh.

So I look forward to having this mystery solved.  These stalls are driving me nuts.  I’m trying to embrace the journey, but sometimes it is difficult.

Tonight I went for a walk, which was helpful.  I went on 2 walks yesterday.  So I’m doing all that I can.

Over and out!

Getting my thoughts down for August 21st

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I’ve been invited to speak at my clinic’s Ideal Protein open house, which is open to the public for anyone investigating the program.  I cannot believe I’m actually one of “those” people.  An “after” person, or at least “successfully in progress” person.  I’m honored to be asked to speak.

Although it’s informal, I thought I would write down some thoughts of what I might share.

1.  I recommend the book “Suddenly Skinny: A Weight Loss Survival Guide” by Freya Taylor.  Love this book.  Several things have touched me in the book that I use in my everyday thoughts now.

Some of these things are:

  • A restaurant is a vessel of ingredients.  Most of them will be more than willing to make what you want exactly how you want it.
  • “Yes, I eat like a freak now” (and so what?)
  • All of the popular, successful programs work….for someone.  But they probably don’t all work for you.  Find the one you can live with and work it.
  • Choose your hard.  It’s hard being overweight, it’s hard losing weight, and it’s hard maintaining weight.

2.  When I’m craving something bad it’s because I’m actually hungry.  So I eat something.  Something on the plan.

3.  There are so many positives, they overshadow any negatives (and there really aren’t any negatives).

Some of the positives (for me) are:

  • I’m completely off of blood pressure medicine and the dosage of one of my meds for high triglycerides was cut in half.  I go for another blood draw at the end of September, and I can only imagine that I will get more good news.
  • I’ve lost 47.9 pounds since May 30th, 2012.  That is 75 days.  That is .64 pounds per day average.
  • I sweat like a “normal person”.  More about that below.
  • Obviously, I’m in smaller clothes.
  • I feel better about myself, and am embracing my girly nature by enjoying looking nice, wearing makeup, and wearing some heels occasionally.
  • I have not had an antacid since day 4 of the program.
  • I have had to take an aspirin maybe 6-8 times in the 75 days.  Aspirin for headaches used to be almost every day thing for me.
  • I have more energy
  • I no longer get drowsy in the afternoon
  • I still don’t like morning, but when I’m up, I’m up.  And I’m busy.
  • I have almost no gastro-intestinal “issues” whatsoever (tummy aches, etc….)

So more about the sweating.  My whole life I’ve been someone who sweats.  A lot.  And I sweat from my head.  My armpits and palms are completely dry, but I look like I ran through a sprinkler because of the sweat from my head.   Although I knew the weight contributed to the problem, because I sweated more at X+100 pounds than I did at X pounds, I felt it wasn’t completely weight.  I know we are all different, but I could be around people who outweighed me at my heaviest and I would look like a drowned rat, and they would be dry.  I just figured I was “lucky” (not).

So even at a 47.9 weight loss, I’ve been this weight before just a little over 2 years ago.  And I still sweat like a pig 2 years ago.  But I noticed this time, at about 25 pounds ago on this diet I can actually go shopping and go for a walk, and not sweat any more than anyone else.  I cannot tell you what a miracle that has been for me.  Sweating, especially for a woman, is completely embarrassing.  You feel so un-feminine, and you feel like a spotlight is just shining on you “LOOK, I’M FAT!!!!”, as if people didn’t already know.

My coach thinks I must have a either a gluten intolerance, or a dairy intolerance that causes my sweating.  We’ve decided that when I phase back into the foods I cannot currently eat (carbs, sugars, dairy), we are going to do it one at a time, so we can isolate the culprit.  Sounds like a great idea to me.  Doesn’t necessarily mean I won’t ever eat the food group I have an intolerance for, but at least I can be aware and plan accordingly.  Like “I have an important event 2 days from now….guess I’ll avoid dairy until then” or whatever.

So that’s all I can think of for now.  Yay Ideal Protein!!!!!!

 

 

 

Artificial sweetener is of the devil

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Well, this week, after not cheating one bit, I actually gained .2 according to my coach’s scale. My weight loss has really stalled over the last 3 weeks. The only thing that was different was the introduction of Walden Farms (a no carb/no sugar/no calorie product line) into my diet.

On a typical day I was having the following:

  • 1 packet of splenda in my coffee in the morning.
  • 2 tiny sticks of sugar-free gum (at most), split in half to make 4 tiny pieces throughout the day
  • 1/2 packet of splenda in an Ideal Protein recipe of salad dressing
  • 1 to 2 Walden Farms products, following the service size, and only 1 serving.

So my coach and I determined it was simply too much artificial sweetener. So now I’m on a self-imposed “no artificial sweetener” ban.

Interestingly enough, other than the stalled weight loss, I was suspecting something was going on because of the following:

  1. I was having headaches. I had maybe 3 in the first 9 weeks on protocol, and all of a sudden 3 in a week.
  2. Instead of maybe only eating one stick of gum split in half, I was definitely eating 2, and really wanted more.
  3. I was simply hungrier.

So I’m hoping with this ban I will kick-start my weight loss again, not feel so hungry, and have far fewer headaches.